Diary entry

It just never seems to get any better.  Everyday I tell myself "tomorrow will better" or "this will all be over soon".  I don't know why I convince myself of these lies.  All I want to do is go to school where I can receive a great education like the white kids, or be on the white bus.  All this hate and violence is killing me.  I just want to get away from it all.  Our school is so run down and old that it could fall down on us any day.  All I think about is just getting to go home.  On my way home from school today I was basically interrogated by the white police officers for no reason.  They teased me and called me names.  What did I ever do to them? Nothing!  Why can't they just accept me for who I am?  When I get home, it's no different than being at school.  Our home is in the same condition.  It's so hard, day after day, worrying about if we will have food on the table.  Why does the color of our skin matter so much?